sigh, another day, finished all my HW, been keeping up pretty well. but it's only been like the first.... not even a week yet. Anyway, already teh drama's starting up, it just doesnt stop. My God, especially wit mah girl. Juss found out she dun trust me, great right? yeah... all the times i said i wouldnt leave her, all the times i said i love her, all the time that i spend with her, and yet one little fight makes her feel like i'm ready to throw all that away. They say men shouldnt cry, fuck those people. If you dont cry and you a guy, you just a fuckin pussy cuz you cant face teh fact that you hurt as hell. shit, cuz i'm cryin righ now, but fuck... juss want her to trust me. whatever, that's my day...

My God, why not even on my anniversary day...?

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Wow, it’s been a whole year since we’ve been together. Happy anniversary baby, I love you.

It’s been a whole year, and I still remember every moment I’ve been with you. I remember when we first started talking a lot during summer. I asked you if you wanted to go to Canada with me, haha. Anyway, during the summer we played DDR a lot and we got really close, remember? I remember after a while you started giving me a hug every time I left, I remember it always felt nice, even though we were both so sweaty. I remember I stayed at your house for dinner a few times with you and your mom. I stayed there at night till I was kicked out of your house, remember? =) I remember when you broke that bracelet, and I owed you a kiss. I remember when I gave you that kiss in your room, your first kiss. I remember school started, and you gave me a hug on the first day in front of your friends. They all teased you about having a boy friend, you told me about this later, remember? If you don’t, that’s ok. I remember you said “yeah, my friends all think you’re my boyfriend.” After that I said, “You know, I could be. Would you go out with me?” I remember you said yeah, and here we are, one year later, remember? I remember at the time I wasn’t really sure if you really believed we would last. I remember you thought this was something that would only last for a month, maybe two if we were lucky. I remember I wanted to stay with you forever.

I can’t remember all the times we went out, all the places we went to together, or when we went there. But I do remember that every moment I spend with you, Jennifer, was a precious time to me. I don’t remember how many times I wanted to be by your side, but I remember I missed you every time I was away from you. I don’t remember all the times I made you cry, but I do remember that when you did, I cried with you. I don’t remember all the pain you felt within, but I remember I felt that pain inside my heart as well. I don’t remember when, but I remember trying to comfort you and I remember when you cried because I got mad at you. I don’t remember all the times I hurt you, but I remember feeling so bad after those moments, I remember that I don’t deserve someone as pure and sweet as you.

I’m sorry for a lot of things. All the times you’ve been patient with me. I’m sorry for all the things I did to you. I’m sorry for all the times that I couldn’t be there when you wanted me to be. I’m sorry I have no excuse other than to ask that you understand I have a lot of classes. I’m sorry that I never got you any gifts. I’m sorry that I made you cry and I’m sorry I got mad at you. I’m sorry for yelling at you, I’m sorry for every word meant to hurt you, and I’m sorry for not calling you back. I’m sorry for hanging up on you. I’m sorry for not bringing you to any of the dances and I’m sorry if I ever made you jealous. I’m sorry for lying to you. I’m sorry for being the way I am. I’m sorry that I make you worry sometimes. I’m sorry for being a dick, a jerk, a fag, I’m sorry I’m me, and not the guy of your dreams. I’m sorry that I look at other girls. I’m sorry I’m insensitive, I’m sorry I’m impatient, and I’m sorry I’m not everything you wish I could be. I’m sorry I’m poor, and I can’t buy you something nice. I’m sorry that sometimes you’re not satisfied. I’m sorry for everything that I cannot do, and I’m sorry for the times where I can’t be with you.

I promise you thought that I’ll always love you. I promise that, for you, I’ll try that much harder. I promise that I’ll be there if I can, I promise I’ll be there when you need me and I promise I’ll be there even if you don’t. I promise you that if I can, I’d do anything for you. I promise you that I’ll work hard to get a better education. I promise you I’ll make you smile more than you cry. I promise you that someday, you’ll have nice jewelry. I promise you that I’ll support you. I promise you that I won’t get mad as much. I promise you that I promise to do all these things, and I promise you I’ll try to be a better man for you.

You know baby, I’m glad that you’re with me. I’m glad that you’re always just a fone call away. I’m glad that if I have to, I can always go to your house. I’m glad that you love me so much, it’s nice to be loved. I’m glad that I have someone in my life such as you that makes me so happy. I’m glad that I can tell you anything and I’m glad that you’ll forgive me for all the stupid things I’ve done. I’m glad that you understand I’m a guy and I have urges. I’m glad that you’re there, whenever I need you. I’m glad that you’d do anything for me. I’m glad that I can cry in front of you without feeling gay. I’m glad that we can be in each other’s arms, even in the middle of summer and I’m glad that we can support each other. I’m glad you understand and know me and still love me for who I am, I’m glad that I found you, before any other man. I’m glad you’re my Jennifer, and I’m glad I fell in love with you.

I love you Jennifer.

~P3NGU1N

Ruben Studdard – Sorry for 2004

John  3 : 16
16 For God so loved the world that He gave His only begotten Son, that every one who believes into Him would not perish, but would have eternal life.

damn... wasted a friday night... wonderful...

that's all i gots to say, happy anniversary

1 Corinthians 14:1
1 Pursue love, and desire earnestly spiritual gifts, but especially that you may prophesy.
1 Corinthians 16:24
24 My love in Christ Jesus be with you all.

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jeez, been bout 5 min and i gotta get back and get this off my chest. I dont give a damn who i tell it to or who's reading dis, gots to get it out htere. Damn, this shit bother me to much. If you're gonna call me and ask me to go to watch a game, especially one that i dont even, like with you, dont stand me up. If i gotta sit through three hours of nothing-ness, dont waste my time. I went there ONLY for you and you dont show up. what do you want from me? just to come home and really feel like talking to you enough to call you and act like nothing hapened? it's not gonna happen, things like this bother me and i cant say it to your face only because it's gonna hurt you. next time you're going to ask me to go out with you, ask your mom first-- save my time and my money.